reflection of my life thus far...

So today I have done a lot of reflecting of my life since tomorrow is my birthday. I thought about how fast time has FLOWN by and all that I have done. Ten years ago I was about to turn the BIG “18” and threatened my mom “if you don’t take me to get my belly button pierced I can legally go tomorrow.” My mom took me because she wanted to sign for something for the last time! I remember the day like it was yesterday! We went and Brenna met us after she got off work at “The Deli.” (side note, that place is amazing!) Like everyone else that turns 18, you think you know everything and that you have life figured out! Well Blog flowerers this could not be more UN-true! You are still a baby at 18! Anyways, I turned 18 at the beginning of my senior year. No clubbing for me because I was one of the first ones so nothing really changed in my life- I LOVED my senior year and was sad to leave Etiwanda. I remember thinking when I left “how is Etiwanda going to function without me and my friends?” ha ha ha Senior year was filled with boy drama, parties, girl drama, parties, and sometimes (mom look away) forging my mom’s signature for an off campus pass… don’t judge I still managed to graduate people! I always think “how did everyone always know about house parties before myspace and facebook?” O ya, PAGERS! Ha ha ha I can proudly say MY generation invented the text messaging via pager code 43770!!!!! (ok so the number text has changed in the past 10 years but if you were legit you will figure it out!) I didn’t take it all in at the time, but that was one of the best times of my life-

To sum up the next 9 years after, I went to college, lived with friends, joined AXO, graduated college, got a teaching credential etc. In between all of those was a DAMN good time! Then I met a certain guy named Ryan Gonzales. He changed my life forever! NOTHING could have prepared me for who I was going to meet on my “man-hunt” that night- He was such an amazing person from the second we met- He is so thoughtful and showed me how I was suppose to be treated. You could say we were attached at the hip since we met and got engaged 9 months later! “and between me and you, him owning a boat might have helped seal the deal!” ha ha ha just kidding… kinda… J  I feel in love, got married a year and a half later, had a baby a year and a half after that and could not be more blessed with my life-  I remember thinking when I turned 18, and again when I graduated HS, about the next 10 years and what my life would be like. It is not the image I imagined but whose is. I didn’t think I would marry after such a short time of knowing someone and I definitely didn’t think I would meet him in a bar, I didn’t think I wouldn’t have an amazing job by now, I thought I would have more kids by now, and I for sure NEVER thought I would be facing the challenges of being a parent of a child with cancer! HOWEVER, I WOULD NOT CHANGE ANYTHING IN MY LIFE FOR ANYTHING IN THIS WORLD… Ok let’s be honest it would be nice to go back and try a little harder and get better grades (yes I said it mom & dad!) J  Let me just say this, I am blessed not to have a major career right now (clearly), I am beyond blessed Ryan wanted to marry me and even more blessed for my precious baby boy-Ryan made my life complete and the baby was a bonus. They are truly the 2 loves of my life and safe to say the best 2 things to enter my life these past 10 years- Many people say to me “Dominick is so lucky and blessed to have parents like you.” Ryan will say “Dominick is so lucky to have you with him all day every day.”  To both of those I say I am the lucky one. I am so lucky he is MY son, I am so lucky I am able to stay home with him and I think of myself as the lucky one. This little baby has taught me to love life and not take it for granted. He has taught me to love stronger, hug tighter, and to really live life to the fullest.

 I think now at 18 +10 (my computer just can’t write that # :/)  I have figured out the secret to life. It is all about LOVE! I am beyond blessed for my family and I think the older you get, the more you realize how much they mean to you-  I really do have an amazing family! And not to mention how fun it is to have Benny and Dominick grow up together J I also have amazing friends I can always count on. I met new ones, lost good ones, and held on to the old ones- As sad as losing a best friend can be, finding who the true ones are is so rewarding- And above all else, I have the best husband and son anyone could ask for! Ryan is my rock and keeps me grounded and both of my boys happiness gives me a reason to smile everyday-

To wrap it up, I can’t believe how amazing these past ten years have been. Even though I miss the HELL out of High School and the fun times of college , living with friends and in the sorority house ( and to be honest doing my hair and make-up every day), I wouldn’t trade my ‘wearing PJs all day, stay at home date nights with the hubs’ for anything. Ryan and I have been on a crazy ride the past 3 years since we met and I can’t imagine having to do any of it without him. He is my rock and my better half. If history repeats itself our life will only get crazier… but I wouldn’t have it any other way… if the next 10 is as good as this last 10 I say “BRING ON THE NEXT TEN YEARS!!!”

Here are some random pictures from the last ten years J enjoy!

my life in HS

Graduated with these people...

Turned 21 with Brenny :)

Lived with her...

then her... 

 Joined with them...

then lived here... (sorry its blurry!)

did some crazy things and went to some crazy parties

 fell in love with this guy

married him...

 still having fun with these girls

Had a baby

My new "Friday/Saturday" night plans :)

 My world :)