radiation

Monday we went in to talk to a Dr that does radiation and to hear what she has to say about the pros and cons. All of Dominicks doctors wanted Ryan and I to make the final decision if we want it or not... This was so hard Monday because no matter what we could not get on the same page and get all the answers we wanted. After a stressful week and lots of lashing out at one another, we went in today (friday) and finally feel like we understand the pros and cons of getting radiation and not. We finally made up our mind and we are more than likely not going to do radiation. To Ryan and I the cons out weight the pros so we are leaning towards not doing it. If he was a little older we would want  give it a try, but since he is so young it is just to risky and scary. It just seems like all the doctors are saying it is risking because of his age, and since we live in a crazy world where a doctor can't FULLY give you their advice, we feel they are secretly telling us not to do it. So, from here on out he will just be closely watched by his cancer doctor for any re-growth of the tumor. We are feeling so much pressure lifted from us with this decision being made and not weighting us down. Even though much of the tough part is over, we still have our moments and thank God they have been at different tiems so the other one is able to be there for support. We still have such a long road ahead with this whole process and it gets draining when we sit and really think about it! The only thing that is such a blessing is the fact this baby is taking everything in like a champ! We started baby food and he is doing so well with it. Today he got his 3 round of Chemo and still NOTHING as far as side effects! He truely is such a strong baby and is teaching Ryan and I so much about strength.